Wand vibrator therapeutic tapping into shutdown emotions. PTSD. Bipolar.



My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar type 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder.

I am no longer afraid to talk about taboo topics.

Recovering from a mood crash a few days ago. Spend at lot of yesterday crying, but have put it away for now again and feeling a lot better today. I have developed resilience and recover much quicker from mood crashes. I am on minimal meds (minimal at my request as otherwise too shutdown with intolerable side effects) and I navigate through the ups and downs.

I actually feel a tremendous release when I cry. For years, I didn’t cry. I process a little at a time, then put it away again.

In this video, mentioned that I find a wand vibrator (it is used externally) to be therapeutic after sexual trauma. Taps into emotions. Much safer than having some random sexual partner. Wand vibrators can be used by men also. They have a deeper vibe than other vibrators (I find other vibrators to be annoying). Some people find them too powerful. Sometimes I use them to discharge the hyperarousal energy. Other ways include dance-walking, doing a painting etc. I can direct the energy to express somehow.

Masturbation was considered to be a shameful thing when I was young. I think it can be therapeutic. I don’t do it for sexual reasons most of the time. More because I need a physical and emotional release sometimes and it’s safer than complications of someone else involved. Sensuality is one way I can feel pleasure after 2 sexual assaults.

Source: Youtube