My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder (type 1) and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).
Recovering from a big PTSD trigger (intense emotion of rage with name calling by someone I had been friendly with). Previous video is last night with the vulnerability. I didn’t feel safe and didn’t know who to trust. Cried most of today then went to work for a bit.
Was irritable but had the task of destroying cardboard which was therapeutic. Then I went to the gym to do weight training. Staying moderately fit helps my resilience and to recover quicker from low moods and stress.
Will try limit social media and stay away when triggered as some are rehashing the topic.
If someone rages at me and calls me names, it’s an instant block on social media. Very triggering for me, especially if I’ve built a relationship with them. It’s strongly linked to trauma from my past.
Boundaries are important and I will no longer tolerate abuse including taking the blame for other people’s over the top abusive reactions.