How I Got Bells Palsy | My Mental Health Breakdown Story| Black Men's Health



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In October 2015, I was a victim of a credit card scam that left me accused for a crime I did not commit.

I had never been so scared in my life and I was unsure how I was going to get out of the situation.
I was convinced to go into the police station for questioning where they only wanted to arrest & charge me with 4 counts of theft over $5000; all while being civilly sued for $30,000. I was told I would have to come up with $100,000 to cover the losses or spend the next 6-8 months in jail. I spent that night in a holding cell with nothing but my thoughts and praying to God that this was some huge mistake.

The next day, I was released on bail and for the first time, was officially in the court system.
Over the next 2 years, I was fighting for my life legally/financially (lawyer and court fees) & my freedom (I was facing jail time if found guilty).
I hid this from everyone because I was worried about being judged and what people would think of me.
So I kept smiling, partying, and pretending to be happy while this situation was eating me alive every single day.
The legal fees emptied out my bank account and all of my savings. The fraudulent activity maxed out my credit card, which I had to pay back over the course of 3 years.

This broke me down mentally. I barley slept or had nightmares when I did. I had many dark nights in my thoughts, never knowing how I was going to overcome this. I thought I had seen the end.

In May 2017, after a 3-day lengthy trial, Harval Bassi Barrister & Solicitor Criminal Defence Lawyer had all my charges dropped and I was found NOT GUILTY!

From that moment on, it was only the beginning of me trying to put the pieces of my life back together. This was now phase 2 of getting out of this situation. For the first time in my life, I experienced Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). I now had to recoup from my financial losses and everything else that came along with being in the court system.

I was hired at a new job— then declined because I did not pass the criminal background check, despite having my charges dropped. My finger prints and criminal record stayed in the system and took me a year to finally have them destroyed which was a process I had to research on my own, and even when I called help-lines or went in person to government buildings, received next to little help.

This was when I realized how many people can stay in the system even when proven not guilty, and not even know…important information that many of us are never taught.

The stress continued to accumulate even though it was all over, which ultimately led to my mental breakdown in February 2018, when I woke up one morning with Bells Palsy- a mental stress disorder.

This was when I knew I had to make changes in my life. I told myself no more scary dreams, no more negative thoughts, no more sleepless nights. I wanted to make the rest of my life, the best of my life.

This is the first time I am telling this story.
There’s a lot more details to add and one day, I will write it all in my first book.
I made a promise to myself to never go back to that dark space again and that starts with me, in my mind and with my thoughts.

With that being said, I’m happier, my mind is more clear, I want to change the world by motivating others with my story.
AND WE HAVE ANOTHER BABY ON THE WAY YA’LL!!!!!!!!!!! (Due July 2021)

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