My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder.
Very fatigued in this video after work this afternoon and a pretty stressful week. Even with the ‘good’ stress of hitting #1 best seller in the Biographical Fiction section of Amazon Bestsellers for the free promotion on my e-book for Pet Purpose: Your Unspoken Voice.
I calculated that if I had earned the money from the downloads from the promotion, it would be a few months of my income from my part-time job. If at that rate everyday of the years, would be nearly 6 figures in $NZ. There is potential.
Been busy with the promotion this week in avoidance mode – need to do the review/appeal process for ACC but it’s been hard to come back to looking at the report again, which was full of errors, contradictions, was dismissive and even had falsehoods. I am going to challenge it out of principle. The psychiatrist has acknowledged permanent disability, but minimised and dismissed it at the same time. Ironically, which is a core theme of Pet Purpose – being dismissed.
How I felt making this video – very fatigued – mouth operating but brain mostly offline. What clinicians call shutdown and dissociating. Need a big rest and to stop avoiding doing the form for the ACC disability assessment appeal.
Then get back to continuing with my other book projects – bit by bit.